I haven’t posted on this in a long time. But I’m finally getting around to putting something up that’s been on my heart for a while now.

At the start of this year I asked a friend of mine what he thought of me as a worship leader. After pausing to think, he replied

“I don’t know.”

We both chuckled. He went further to explain

“I guess I just don’t really notice you or remember you while you’re leading. So at least you’re not distracting.”

We chuckled again. To be honest, when I first heard his comment, something in me was a bit sad. Part of me wanted to hear him say “You’re a great worship leader!” But after thinking about it for a little bit, I realized that what he actually said was better. Not to say that makes me a good worship leader, but like he said, at least I’m not distracting.

One of my biggest struggles is with Pride. And this is especially difficult for me when I do things that are very visible, like worship or leading bible study. But the focus and point of those things are not me, but God. And to be honest, sometimes I get in the way and try to turn the attention to me. But thanks be to God and His mercy, that despite my weakness, He is able to keep me from being distracting.

This has been a lesson that I’ve been learning ever since I began taking my faith seriously freshman year. It is something that I continually have to pray for, humility. And with no credit to me, I am thankful that people don’t remember me, but remember God (hopefully, since that wasn’t explicitly said, but kind of implied). If that second part (people remembering God) is missing, I hope that God can work there, but that I still remain “forgotten”.

I think this song by Lecrae really puts it well.

God, “I could play the background, because I know sometimes I get in the way. Won’t you take the lead, and I’ll play the background.”